Shutting the Door
Verse 1
I look at the wood and the temptation's real
To swallow the ache and the pain that I feel
But I remember taking what wasn't my own
Leaving us stranded and sinking like stone
I've paid for the secondhand, desperate mistake
And I know exactly the toll it will take
Chorus
So I'm walking away from the cabinet today
I remember the heavy, dark price I would pay
To the one I'd betray, and the ones I owe dues
If I open this door, I know who I will lose
I'm shutting it tight, I'm walking away
Saying, "No, I don't need you today."
Verse 2
I've been down that road and I've learned every fear
I've watched how the wreckage just multiplies here
I know if I try to thread that one needle
It ends with my body just curling up fetal
I've survived the withdrawal, the absolute ache
It's a cycle I'm finally choosing to break
Chorus
And I'm walking away from the cabinet today
I remember the heavy, dark price I would pay
To the one I'd betray, and the ones I owe dues
If I open this door, I know who I will lose
I'm shutting it tight, I'm walking away
Saying, "No, I don't need you today."
Bridge
This untreated pain is a weight in my chest
It shadows my waking and steals all my rest
But she is the anchor that keeps me right here
And losing her love is my only real fear
I need her much more than I need the relief
So I'm shutting the door on the guilt and the grief
Outro
Walking away.
The hurting is real, but I'm finding my way.
I need her much more than the numb of the haze.
Yeah, I'm shutting the door on the cabinet.
No, I don't need you today.
I don't need you today.