Frozen In the Light
Intro
Verse 1
Every year your birthday comes,
and I light a candle all the same.
The calendar says you're grown now,
but you're still small inside the frame.
Somewhere someone with your name
is blowing candles out tonight,
and I'm grieving my baby and his brother,
frozen in the light.
Chorus
You can't bury someone breathing,
so the funeral never ends.
There's no stone to lay my flowers on,
no casseroles from friends.
Every time I think it's scarred,
the date comes round again,
and I lose you like the first time.
The funeral never ends.
Verse 2
I try to picture you taller,
with a deeper voice, a stranger's face,
but my mind just hands me back
the two of you in the same place:
my baby in his little train bed,
who never left my side,
and his brother growing up too fast
with a grief too big to hide.
Chorus
You can't bury someone breathing,
so the funeral never ends.
There's no stone to lay my flowers on,
no casseroles from friends.
Every time I think it's scarred,
the date comes round again,
and I lose you like the first time.
The funeral never ends.
Verse 3
And people say, "At least they're living,"
and I know that that is true,
but in my head you haven't aged a day,
the way only the dead do.
Hope keeps the wound from closing.
It pulls the stitches every spring.
And I'd rather bleed forever
than stop hoping anything.
Bridge
I'm not telling you to hurt you.
None of this is yours to hold.
I just need you to know you were missed
every year that you got old.
Final Chorus
You can't bury someone breathing,
so the funeral never ends.
There's no stone to lay my flowers on,
no casseroles from friends.
Every time I think it's scarred,
the date comes round again,
and I lose you like the first time.
The funeral never ends.
Outro
Keep growing,
even where I can't see.
I'll keep grieving.
That's a trade I'd make again.